Will I make it?

I am currently posted to the posting that i am so clueless about and so seriously not interested in. I have lots of readings to do and so many new things to learn. Currently there is a shortage of people working because one of us is down with chicken pox which indirectly means i have to work extra harder and stuff whatever there is for me to learn in my tiny little brain in whatever means so that they can start me oncall earlier.I which they can lend me an extra brain. I am going to be so overwork next week. Hope i can make through it..

Apakah?

Disebabkan lame sangat x ber'blog' makanye, aku dah terlupe segala konsep2 yang ade. Gatal sangat tukar2 template,akhirnye aku dah terbuang segala link kengkawan blog aku dan shoutout box aku...hampeh. Terasa sedikit pelik mempunyai blog yang xde link dgn orang lain dan xde shoutbox...macam outcast pulak aku ni...belasah jelah.aku dah x ingat camne nak edit template aku, malas nak fikir..agak2 ade mase free nanti baru explore.

Anyway, going back to teluk intan tomorrow..back to work and all the crying prems.rase macam bosan tapi tak sabar2 sebenarnye nak balik bilik..kemas bilik, gi keja dan bergosip dengan suha sambil2 lunch. lame x jumpe fazlina..mesti banyak keluh kesah makcik tu nak citer kat aku.

There are actually a few things to be settle yang aku dengan selambanye tangguh2kan so bile dah balik teluk intan nanti boleh kasi settle semua benda. And i need to buy shoes rack ..aritu dah nak beli dah mase kat Ipoh tapi ade problem dengan barcode dan menyampah dengan cashier yang muke cam sardin cap ayam, aku dengan fazlina selamba blah, main tinggal je rak tu kat counter. rase aman sikit nanti bile ade rak kasut,xdelah aku terkelam kabut susun kasut2 yang bersepah kat depan rumah bila wan ajak keluar...segan tu kalo dia tengok kasut depan rumah bersepah2.

Hopefully, JKN akan buat meeting cepat2 dan i'll get what i want. hopefully,work will be less stressful this week.

Back again

wehuu..after so long, i'm finally back again in the same old blog. I have no reason to write again actually...zaman jiwa kacauku sudah berlalu (not that blog is for people with probs,but my ideas only come when i'm in such uncertainty )...my life is currently well control..yelah tu except for the fact that ade orang2 besar yang akan decide my further posting which can lead to what type of doctor i will be in the future. i am actually praying day and night to get medical. tak tau kenapa rase macam best je berlari ke hulu hilir dalam wad yang penuh patient. lagipun aku memang jona pun,so tak kiralah posting apepun,aku tetap akan penuhkan wad so why don't just go for medical yang dah sah2 busy tu. Furthermore i have friends in medical who are at least good enough for me to trust.

Anyway, i'm actually in a long holiday so after hours of sleeping, munching, watching endless tv shows..i finally decided to blog again..(not that anyone will read). My holiday ends on wednesday so i will be stuck again in paediatric until i get the letter to state which hospital i'm going. Back to NICU with the prems..i hope nothing weird will happen because i'm so tired of paediatrics ...halusnye vein budak2 tu susah nak ambik darah.

hopefully,i will write as frequent as i can in this blog again.

note;thinking of taking MRCP but study can be boring and tiring,don't know whether i'm ready for that yet

Misi kurangkan tidur

Yelah tu, entah berjaya entah tak...I guess I have to do whatever it takes to not sleep more than 4 hours....yes coffee would be one of the solution I had in mind. anyway, the final is just 8 months from now and I have a 5 years study to catch up...I need to discuss at least 2 sets of past year paper in a week and my friends and I had plan to do at least 4 short cases and 1 long case for a week...ok and to make the suffering worse, I also need to study for my posting and the every-6-weeks-I-rather-knock-my-head-than-face-it end of posting test. Tu belum kena present CPC lagi..bila tambah tolak tambah tolak..where got time to sleep ma. So, in a conclusion, the rest 8 months of my life onwards will be so caffeinated and I will hopefully be educationally intoxicated and errr plus the most welcoming eyebags. ergh...this is going to be hideous.

Me and everything that matters

In case anyone is reading this, stop wondering why I'm still writing although I had in so many times telling everyone that I'm tired of blogging. I guess, blogging is in my blood. Anyway, I've moved from my house in Ipoh. Yes, I myself was shocked with my decision but I guess I need a new environment, away from all the chaotic things that happened in the house. I know the girls would think that I am somewhat disloyal but loyalty at the time being is not the thing that matters to me. So far I think I'm handling the moving issue well. I tried to do everyone justice by telling them and apologizing to me one by one. I'm not the type that would just go and leave the rubbish behind, no ....I'm responsible towards my action. Of course I kept the reason for my moving to myself...and err,miza. But I did give the girls some hint as to why I'm moving, I mean it won't be fair to them to just let me go without knowing what the heck that happened in my mind and heart. Nad was very supportive and I'll always remember the night we shed tears as sisters. Luckily I had so many support from my other friends and Nad who had helped me a lot to move my things. Thank God, I was wondering earlier how I'm gonna move my whole things in just a week with the exam so near the corner. Now that I've move to the place that I'm sure will give me a peace of mind, I am going to study the smartest and hardest way that I know for the final. Now everything that matters to me would be the final exam and those people around me who will only care. Going to start my study group after the holiday. Anyway, thanks Miza for the advice and thanks Nad for being supportive and for not hating me for moving. Thanks Sarah for the help with the TV. Thanks everyone else (Sal and the housemate) for helping me with my stuff.

Something from the net
Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

Confused

I am now back in Klang, serius tak tau nak buat ape dah, nak lepak kat Ipoh, cam tak tentu arah je, dahlah asyik makan sorang2, macam dipulaukan pulak rasenye, sedangkan kengkawan aku semua pakat lepak kat kampung memasing. Penat gaks aku nak explain kat tokey kedai makan tu ,aku ade kawan sebenarnye tapi diaorg takde kat Ipoh. Report dah tunjuk kat prof tapi x tau dah siap check ke belum, kalo balik Ipoh sekrg tapi report tak siap check lagi macam membuang mase je. Nak lepak kat Klang pun tak tau nak buat ape ( sedangkan boleh je studykan...), sampai sedara mara pun pelik, kenapa cuti lame sgt, kata jadi doktor busy, cam tak busy je. Ni semua salah administration, siapa suruh bagi kitaorg buat elektif sampai lapan minggu. Aku pun nyesal pulak buat bersungguh2 sampai habis cepat sgt, akhirnye terkial2 sampai Februari nanti. Esok kot balik Ipoh, balik jelah, boleh kemas bilik yang dah berhabuk tu. Tapi percayalah cakap aku,mesti sehari je aku boleh tahan duk kat Ipoh, esoknye mesti jiwa aku meronta2 untuk pulang ke Klang. Giler betul.Dahlah tgh jiwa kacau ni, sekejap down, sekejap ok.....mmg sengal. semuanya salah administration.